Happy Angelversery Alessa Rose

Happy 3rd Angelversery in heaven baby girl, we love you to the moon and back! We are on our way to visit you at the cemetery and send your balloons to heaven, I hope they all get to you, please share with the other angels. We love you we will never ever forget you. 

Tiny Angel

For a brief and fleeting moment,

An angel touched the ground;

With tiny wings and halo,

And sweet, soft angel sounds.

Blessing the lives of others,

In beauty and in grace;

Those who saw her knew that God

Had kissed her tiny face.

The angel came for reasons,

We may not understand;

Her journey brief, with gifts so great,

And guided by God's hand.

For the angel left so much behind,

Left nothing here undone;

She gave herself so others live,

Just like her Father's Son.

So, rest now tiny angel,

Your work on earth is through;

In the beauty of God's perfect love,

We saw His gift in you.

Allison Chambers Coxsey

Chances Are?

I wonder what the chances are for a Grandmother to have her last three grandchildren all born on the same day for the last three years in a row? Because yes, for the last three years I have had a grandchild born on July 10.

Starting with our little Rosie Posie being born 4 months early on July 10th 2009.

The next year Rosies little brother Gavin was born a month early but on the 10th. 

So when my oldest daughter got a due date of July 10th, I knew all along that would be the day Ellen was born. I was right, that was in fact the day that Ellen chose to come into the world.

 If you have been counting or even if you have not been keeping track that is 12 grandchildren I now have. One of them is a step grandchild, but the rest all belong to my children. 

Rosie had her 2 year checkup at the NICU. Shes not ofically corrected to the age of two yet but she is almost there.

She saw her favorite nurse Donia who was the flight nurse on the helicopter ride to Des Moines and the nurse that took care of her while she was very tiny and sick. As Rosie started getting stronger she had many nurses she liked.

After NICU check-ups we had the fourth of July and the birthday parties all together this year.

Birthday cake face

 Gavin has his cake too

Rosie and her new bike

as you can see she loves it!

Fireworks

And I will sign off with a picture of my newest sweet pea.

Pain

I never knew you could feel physical pain in your heart until my precious granddaughter was born still. It felt like a hand squeezing my heart, I could not breathe. The pain that crushed my heart was very real, very raw. I was going through the motions of life wishing it was all a dream. I went to sleep crying and I woke up crying. I would wake up in the middle of the night crying, remembering it was all real. The grief washed over us all like a fog rolling in. It was crushing. It was brutal. It was a pain I had never felt before. I cried for three months straight. I didn't know a person had so many tears. Three years later the crushing pain seems to have subsided replaced by a need to remember and honor Alessa, a need to still buy her a gift every holiday so shes not forgotten, a need to buy new angels for her corner of the room, and a need to hold and kiss a beautiful baby girl who will not get a chance to grow up. We love you sweet baby girl.

Alessa Rose 7-25-2008

A rose bloomed in our hearts today,

and in our hearts it will forever stay.